Abdulla Eyad Al Muqla (my son in Bahrain);

I have been working on getting contact with you for nearly 12 years now. I don't know if you want contact with me, especially since I have come to realize that you have been told that I abandoned you. This couldn't be farther from the truth. There is not one day that passed that I haven't begged God to let me see you. It's true: I did bring you to Bahrain, but we were not supposed to stay forever. I was promised by your grandfather and your father that they would never allow you to be away from me. They swore that you will come home with me. They didn't tell me the truth - I believed them when they swore to me.

I can't expect you to forgive me. It was my mistake for believing these people. It was me that brought you over there. I am so sorry. I have heard that you have no mother or father now. I heard that your father abandoned you and does not have much contact with you. I can't understand why they won't let you come here if your father doesn't take good care of you. I am so angry and sad knowing that you have been treated this way.

It has been more than 11 years of a battle to just get contact with you. I would have done anything to just hold my little baby. Now, you are not a baby. I have missed every step in your life. I can't tell you how much that hurts - it rips my heart out!

I heard your voice on the phone when I called your school. You hung up on me, which I can understand, but - I heard your sweet voice. You are an angel from heaven. I don't know how much you know about me or your brother and sisters, but I will write a little here:

I am a middle-school and high-school business, marketing, and mathematics teacher. I have a master degree in education, and my bachelor degree is in finance with a minor in economics. I love teaching, I love kids, all kids cling to me and want to stay. I have sleepovers sometimes where there are more than 20 kids in the house all night long, watching movies and playing games. I am upbeat and fun, and I love to make fun of everything (including myself).

Your older brother is 15 and a half now. He just got his driving permit and he will be driving in a few months. He is also getting his braces off this year. He is an extremely smart and talented boy. You guys would have been so amazing to watch grow up together. Your brother has recently won a scholarship essay. He has been planning to attend the University of Washington when he graduates, and become a mechanical engineer. Your brother has a heart of gold and would do anything for anyone.

You have two little sisters - 7 and 9 years old now. The oldest of your sisters is a gorgeous blonde with brown eyes, and is very artistic. She is intelligent, but mischievous. The youngest of your sisters has darker and slightly curly very long hair with blue/green eyes. She is the BRAIN. She is extremely quick and smart and very loving. Your brother is also half arab but has a bit lighter eyes than you have. They are brown, but just not 'lost in the beautiful sea' brown eyes, like you have. Yours are very deep brown, and his are medium brown - but beautiful all the same.

I am married, and your step father (Michael) is also a mechanical engineer (which is where I think your brother really gets most of his knowledge from). Both boys here are computer geeks. Both of them have the 'best of the best' computer gaming systems.

We love to go camping in the summer. We have an enormous new RV that we go camping in, which is so fun. We have all seasons here. We live in a very densely green (treed) state (Washington - The Evergreen State). We love to go to the beach and to the peninsula, which is an amazing rain forest that looks like it comes out of a fairyland book. There is moss covering the grounds, trees, and plants. In the wintertime, we get up to 5 feet of snow, but we love to go up to the mountain and tube down or ski down (I have never snowboarded, but I'm sure that's fun as well). We get all four seasons here. In the fall and spring, we get rain mixed with nice sunny days.

I wish I could describe what your whole life would have been like if you were here. I won't lie and tell you that your entire life would have been fantastic. Here we have bad and good days too, but we have far more good than bad. You would have been very well taken care of. You would have been given everything you need - most of what you want. I have imagined you being with us at times and have wondered how it would be. I can only tell you that you would have a blast most of the time. We are a very happy family. We have fun, and we love each other. No one suffers.

If ever - at some point in your life, you choose that you would like to see us - even if it's not until you are an adult, we will be anticipating and waiting for you. I have waited for that day for so long now, but I am not sure it will happen. You just turned 13 on April 3 (two weeks ago today). I have dreams of what would happen - what it would be like - if you came. You will be an adult in 5 years, but you have the opportunity to decide to come before that, if you want. By Bahrain law, you can decide at 15 years old. You are old enough to ask, too, right? If you want to come here, whether for just visiting or not, you can ask whoever takes care of you.

I don't know what else to do other than what I am doing. I swear, I don't want to make your life more difficult than it may be. If you wanted me to stop asking to have you, see you, or talk to you, I wouldn't know. I don't know how my heart would take that. This is not meant to be a punishment on you. They want to punish me, but they are punishing you so much by trying to keep you from ever knowing who I am. That should never happen, and I can't stop them from what they want to tell you or what they want to do. You are half me, though, which means you have FIGHT in you. If you are half me, I know you have GOT to have a temper and a lot of inside (possibly built up) feelings that you want to release. Release them! Be YOU, the wonderful perfect person you are, and demand fairness! If that means you come live here with people that will treat you more than fair, then please, good God in heaven, please, come here. You are a king in our world.

Here, you say what you want. You say what you mean. You are accepted for just exactly what you are, and respected more for just being YOU. You can choose to believe anything you want and everyone will accept you for what you choose (if you are Muslim - be Muslim). You don't have to hide what you feel about something or someone in front of their face and then go home and have a gossip session about how horrible that someone or something is. There are no games here. We can live in peace without these dumb games - the same games this family has been playing your whole life so far. What good can it do to keep a child away from his mother, take his father away from him, and lie about every situation under the sun? There is NO good that can come from anything they have done. You are half me, and you deserve to know what this half is about. You deserve to decide what you want to take from each side of the people that made you.

I have a lot of fierceness in me, but I know you do too. I know - when you were less than a year old, you would bite me for kissing you. You didn't want me to kiss you as much as I did - I kept kissing you too much, you got irritated at it and bit me with your little toothlessness. You were a feisty little thing in other ways too, and it's still inside you, you just may have repressed it for long enough to forget about it. Don't settle! What I mean by that is - don't say, "Well, it's good enough. I'm not dying and I have some things I want in life." You shoud never settle! You deserve EXACTLY what you want. If you want to live a carefree life, take it! It's yours! You are a United States Citizen! You have all of the rights in the United States that any other citizen has.

They might tell you, "oh, well Bahrain doesn't allow dual citizenship, so you are not American anymore" BULL! America is a little bit bigger than Bahrain, and if we say you are an American citizen, you are an American citizen. You can walk right into the American embassy, and they will tell you that you are an American citizen (they will also ask you - and give you the chioce - to come back home to the USA if you want - and they will fly you here if you want that, especially since I have sole custody of you). Your father (Eyad) is a wanted criminal here, so he wouldn't dare come here or he will be in prison. I have told the family that if they allow me to have contact - JUST CONTACT - with you that I might be willing to drop every charge put on that family from any of the countries that could hold them for criminal warrants. It may not be a crime in Bahrain to do what they have done and are still doing, but here, in the USA, it is a federal and state wide crime, and is severely punishable. One person's rights should NEVER be taken away by another person, though, no matter what country lived in.

Do what you want in your heart. Don't listen to their stupid lying. They don't know how to tell the truth because they lie so much. Do what you want. Whether you stay or come here, just please hear me - completely! I love you! I will always love you! I will always be dying inside from not seeing you! You are always welcome! You are the world! Please contact me someday, somehow. Please! I will not stop trying from my end - to have contact with you. You are in my heart, you are in my soul, you are in my dreams, you are with me in spirit. Your sisters, brother, aunts, uncles, cousins, and grandparents all miss you more than you know (even all of our friends miss you). Your beautiful pictures will always hang on our walls.

Hang in there, baby! I can't imagine what you have going through your mind, but please hang in there, and somehow, someday, maybe everything will all work out. You can contact me directly anytime you want - just email me: returnabdulla@gmail.com

Some spellings of my son's name:
Abdulla Eyad AlMuqla Al Muqla AlMoqla Al Moqla AlMokla Al Mokla AlMukla Al Mukla

Some known spellings of the names of this family:
Eyad Abdulla AlMuqla Al Muqla AlMoqla Al Moqla AlMokla Al Mokla AlMukla Al Mukla
Rahab Rehab
Muneera Noona Mona AlMuqla Al Muqla AlMoqla Al Moqla AlMokla Al Mokla AlMukla Al Mukla
Ali Hassan
Abdullla Isa Mohammad AlMuqla Al Muqla AlMoqla Al Moqla AlMokla Al Mokla AlMukla
AbdulRahman Abdulla AlMuqla Al Muqla AlMoqla Al Moqla AlMokla Al Mokla AlMukla Al Mukla
Aisha Abdulla AlMuqla Al Muqla AlMoqla Al Moqla AlMokla Al Mokla AlMukla Al Mukla
Fatima AlFathel Al Fathel AlFatel Al Fatel